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Saturday, December 26, 2009

Family Pics







No, not from Christmas. From November but I've finally gotten around to posting them b/c I want to send some friends and family here to see them in my Christmas/New Year's notes I'm still determined to write. I've got at least 7 more days to celebrate the Octave of Christmas in the Church calendar, right?

Anyway, you can see we had a lot of fun getting these shots. The photographer has a real gift for actually enjoying the kiddos.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Celebrating the 10th Anniv. of RC SA on the Feast of OL of Guadalupe

Sat., Dec. 12, 2009 marks the 10th Anniversary of the physical home and sacred space of the SA RC Sections, Our Lady of the Hills Family Mission Center. Don't miss Mass with Fr. Thomas Salazar, LC at 9:30am on the 12th at OLH! Did I already mention it's also the Feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe? :)

Thursday, December 3, 2009

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Wednesday, December 2, 2009

November Retreat Notes on the Holy Name

Fr. Thomas Salazar, LC gave us not just our meditation but also the talk at last month's retreat. His meditation was on "Evangelizing" and included basic elements of a missionary spirituality that should be the subject of a separate post later. His shorter talk related to the Lord's Prayer was taken from the phrase "Hallowed be thy name," the name of God, the holy name of Jesus. What follows are my notes:

1. A name gives intimacy. "Jesus" is the name we have for the Father incarnate on earth. His name inspires love and hatred. Not just atheists disrespect God's name. We also do so when we're not living as we should, as well as by not respecting his name in the usual ways.

Do I give honor to God's name? How?

2. We should have hope, confident trust in the name of Jesus. "Call out his name...[he'll] come running." Jesus' name is a prayer in itself.

3. Fr. read an extended quote from one of C.S. Lewis' Narnia chronicles: The Horse and His Boy. He challenged us, like the boy in the book, to learn to recognize Jesus' presence and to listen to all he wants to tells us about himself, myself, his name.

December's Monthly Retreat is less than a week away: Tues., Dec. 8 at 9:30am at OLH Family Center. That's also the Feast of the Immaculate Conception. St. Bernadette, pray for us!

Meditation on Zacchaeus

This was our meditation for our Team Holy Hour in November. The text was the Gospel for that day, Luke 19: 1-10. Maybe you can use it for your personal daily meditation or your team can use it this month. Hope it serves as an aid to your prayer!


Text: Again, text was Luke 19:1-10.

Acts of faith, hope & love: Father, we believe in You and in your love. We hope in You and trust confidently in your promises. We love You and thank You for your great love that calls us to yourself, to your presence in the Eucharist, and to your Word that instructs our hearts.

Petition: Our petition is for that deeper conversion of heart that we need to be united w/ You always.

Fruit: We ask for the fruit that, by your grace, we have hearts like Zacchaeus- open to seeing You, quick to give to You, detached from all that crowds You out of our hearts and lives.

1) Zacchaeus.
The Gospel tell us he was the chief tax collector. So, not only was he a Jew working for the Romans, collecting from his own people & probably skimming off the top as was common, but he was even the head of the tax collectors w/ even more authority to lord over people and even more responsibility. How he must have needed to know You, your peace, your strength, Lord! At the same time, we see how unconditionally you love us all, Lord! From the greatest of sinners to the holiest of saints, to all those lukewarm in between. How much you love each of us.

Why does Luke tell us Zacchaeus was "short in stature?" Luke the physician naturally notices the physical details but he also notes it so that we can understand why Zacchaeus had climbed the tree.

2) The sycamore tree.
In the beginning, Zacchaeus only climbed up out of curiosity: he was "seeking to see who Jesus was." So, he climbed the tree for a better view. Even if he was not motivated by the slightest bit of faith, Zacchaeus was intellectually honest. He knew there was a reason to be curious about this man Jesus. And he didn't care what others thought about him, whether he made a spectacle of himself responding to that nudge of his intellect or conscience to figure out just a little more about You, Lord. Here Zacchaeus is an example for me to follow.

3) The Lord.
Then, You looked up at him, Jesus, and called him to yourself & gave him your very self all at the same time. That changed everything for him, Lord- one look, one call from You! How you speak with authority to our hearts b/c You are the Author of Love! I remember those moments in my life when you've done the same to me...as a young girl, when your call first penetrated my heart...all the love you've showered on me throughout my life- even in the midst of hard times, you've always been there w/ me, reminding me I'm never alone...and now as a married woman, You love me through my husband everyday in all the ways he provides for me and for our family, in all the ways he cares for me. Help me, Lord, to see your glances of love throughout my life now during this meditation and later throughout my day, when I'm tempted to feel alone or discouraged, when I'm tempted to feel overwhelmed.

4) Myself.
Above all, Lord, help me to respond to your calls like Zacchaeus did to the one call that changed his life! Help me to give back to You w/out counting the cost, to journey forward with You w/out looking back. Like You tell us: the one who looks back, who takes her hand off the plow, isn't worthy of the mission b/c the mission requires all our heart, mind, and soul. To plant lasting seeds for You- deeply, in straight rows, in well-prepared & well cared for soil- is an awesome call. It is the call of an apostle, the call of all your baptized daughters and sons.

I believe in that call and want to answer it for You, with You, Lord. Show me how I can give you my whole heart and my whole self, like Zacchaeus, Lord. Show me.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Lives of Aborted Babies Honored in Funeral Mass

This post is basically an e-mail from the dynamic Sylvia.

Our EWC case of life a few weeks ago focused on Dr. Monica Miller, Director of the Citizens for a Pro-Life Society. She and members of her organization found the remains of aborted babies in the dumpsters of Michigan clinics run by abortionist Alberto Hodari. Dr. Miller arranged for a funeral mass to be held by the Bishop of Detroit for these babies to give them the dignity they deserve as children of God, created in His image and likeness.

Here is a link to the website of Citizens for a Pro-Life Society.

Let's keep her organization in our prayers as we decide how best to support her efforts to afford our tiniest brothers and sisters in Christ the rights and dignity they deserve.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

September Retreat Notes on God the Father

Our regularly visiting spiritual guide from Houston, Mary Beth, was with us for September's Retreat and gave the lay formation talk on God the Father's love. What follows are my notes from her talk:

We all can have many misconceptions about who God really is. Fr. Jonathan Morris' book The Promise lists several of these misconceptions: God the Vending Machine ( I put in to get what I want); God the Clock-Maker (He designed everything to just go on its own); The God of the Buffet (I pick and choose His attributes); God the Cop (He is critical and just waiting for me to screw up); God as Life Insurance (Some virtue & religion is good but let's keep a prespective on the good things of the world). None of these is accurate or reflects who God has revealed Himself to be. A more realistic view of God motivates us to love and to live in love. So, let's look at Him in the Gospels, in the person of Jesus Christ.

God is strong (eg. Christ calming the storm). God is protective (eg. giving Mary to John and John to Mary at the Cross). God is someone who provides (eg. Just look at all of Creation!). God is someone who educates and forms (eg. Christ's life w/ the Apostles). Christ is one w/ God the Father (eg. Jesus was always in prayer with his Father and Christ couldn't wait to die on the Cross b/c that was the fulfillment of the Father's will, that was all the love he could give in the Father's name). God is a healer (eg. all of Christ's helaing). God is a forgiving Father (eg. the merciful father of the Prodigal Son). God is never indifferent (eg. "If you who are wicked know how to give good gifts to your children when they ask, how much more...). God is someone who respects my freedom (eg. He challenges "Choose life." The choice is mine.) God is a daddy who meets me where I am (eg. Christ meeting the Samaritan woman at the well).

What do I do with this knowledge? First the woman, then the saint. My only security is in God my Father's infinite love. Try to be dependent, like a child. Remember, He allows suffering because it creates some pressure, it sets a deadline for me to get the growth done. Otherwise, we all would always put it off. Cling to Him in my prayer commitments, especially a "well done meditation (Fr. Thomas' challenge later). And meet Him in the Sacraments.

2009-2010 Monthly Retreats to be on the "Our Father"

Our RC Monthly Retreats began in September. This year's theme is Prayer, especially all Christ taught us to pray in the "Our Father." Each month we will look at a line from the Lord's Prayer and what it teaches us about prayer, God, and holiness. These will be the specific themes each month: September- God the Father; (October-Triduum); November- Our Goal is to Bring All Things Under Christ; December- The Joys of Fulfilling God's Will; January- God Always Provides; February- Forgiveness; March- Help Us, Lord, to Always Have a Clean Heart; and April- God Will Make Us Victorious if We Trust in Him.

I am excited to dig deeper into the "Our Father" and prayer. I've grown so much each year from our Monthly Retreats and the topics we focused on so intently each year: the Beatitudes as an Imitation of Christ (or Christ's virtues) last year and the Core Convictions of a Catholic and member of RC in 2007-2008. (Anyone wanting a refresher can find the 8 Core Convictions listed in the sidebar.)

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Book Review: Unless You Become Like This Child, von B

My systematic theo professor in college is a student & devotee herself of renown German theologian Hans Urs von Balthasar, even, if I remember correctly, studying under him &/or his colleagues, including then-Cardinal Ratzinger. We read a lot of Theo-Drama in her classes and heard even more from it. Since then, I have wanted to read more of his work and recently have been working on a slim little volume called Unless You Become Like This Child. For a few years now, my spiritual program has focused on growing in trust of God, as a child trusts his parents.

I am especially enjoying and learning from von B's fifth chapter in Unless...: "Living as God's Children." There he begins by noting that "nothing...has ever more emptied the wondrous mystery of child of its value" as the modern positivist preoccupation with making ourselves [what we decide humanity ought to be in our opinion]. He continues by noting that the traits of the adult Christian living as a child of God are "most evident in Christ himself:" 1) delightful amazement, esp. at the gifts of freedom, the other, Creation; 2) thanksgiving, in implicit recognition that I owe my life to another; 3) embracing the mystery of the Church and my place in it; and 4) living fully in the present moment, like a child with time to play and SLEEP. I'll close with a particularly-relevant-for-myself quote re. that last point-
"Pressured man on the run is always postponing his encounter with God to a 'free moment' or a 'time of prayer' that must constantly be rescheduled, a time that he must laboriously wrest from his overburdened workday. A child knows that God can find him at every moment because every moment opens up for him and shows him the very ground of time: as if it reposed on eternity itself."

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Case of life: "The Blind Girl"

Finally, back to the Case, especially b/c I'll probably miss EWC today w/ a sick kiddo. It'll be good for me to continue reflecting on this one. RC cases discussed during EWC are always true stories.

Our first case of the year was a case of a young woman born blind. She suffered and struggled because of her blindness, unhappy that she could not do many things other, more typical people could do. She had a faithful boyfriend who stood by her through her heartaches and could see her goodness, despite her own negativity. He helped her persevere and see the positive side of things. The young woman always told her boyfriend, "If I could just see, I'd marry you."

It finally happened that the young woman was told it was her turn for a transplant, that she could have eyes (corneas) recently donated. She had the surgery and as the bandages were finally removed, her boyfriend was there with her for her first glimpse of the world. It was then she realized that he was blind. "Well," he said, "will you marry me now?" Painfully for him, her answer was no, she just couldn't do it, she couldn't handle the suffering related to being blind, even now. They went their separate ways.

Later, the young man wrote his former girlfriend a letter. He told her he loved her and always had only wanted her to be happy. He asked her to promise to take care of herself and her eyes, for before they were her eyes, they were first his...

When I first heard this story, I choked/gasped out loud. The betrayal and the love side by side struck me deeply. And the way the young man was another Christ, loving entirely for the other, not faltering even when rejected, is a powerful testimony of his own relationship w/ Christ. All she had to do was enjoy the gift and stop angsting over figuring everything out. All God wants us to do is enjoy his gifts, especially those of the people in our lives, especially our spouses. May we, may I, enjoy my husband this day and be more willing to sacrifice for him in those ways he needs from me, without counting the small cost.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Back to life. Back to EWC!

Over the summer when my RC team doesn't meet for our regular "Encounter with Christ (EWC)," I can think that I don't miss it that much or that I'm fine without it; but, every fall, once I re-connect with my team and we have Encounter, I realize anew what a gift it is to me and how good it is for me, as if it was made for my soul! Actually, it was. That's part of what a charism is for those called to live it. Gift. Mystery. Inspiration of the Holy Spirit. Personally-crafted-for-you-by-the-Holy-Spirit spirituality. And like all his gifts, Christ doesn't ever thrust a particular spirituality or aspect of a spirituality, including Encounter, upon us. He lets us choose to enjoy the gift. (The ladies of my team are themselves gifts, too, but today I'm thinking about Encounter.)


I love going to Encounter because it helps me to live a certain "ortho-praxy," however imperfectly. Many Catholic-Christians, myself included, are often quite concerned with ortho-doxy (literally "right reason"). Are we remaining true to Christ and the Tradition of his Church [by doing this or that liturgical pratice]? Does this [insert philosophy, socio-political solution, refrain from a song] participate in the Truth of life as it is created by God? Lately, I've found myself reflecting more and more on the life-long challenge of ortho-praxy ("right practice"). Am I truly living the never-changing but always new challenges of the Gospels? Am I living them as Christ has called me individually to do so? Do others know I'm a Christian by my love? Or will I be vomited from the mouth of God for my lukewarmness?


EWC is a combination Gospel study, prayer group, and practical study group. Each week, we reflect on the coming Sunday's Gospel. We hold each other accountable to our personal commitments to a life of prayer and virtue. One representative offers a spontanteous prayer on behalf of all, lifting up the reflections, inspirations, and needs of the team. Then we spend time discussing a real life example of an act of inspired virtue (called a "case of life"): seeing its causes & consequences, comparing parallels in life & the Gospels, and, finally, commiting to a resolution that follows the case's example.


More later on this week's very moving case. I'm still busy thinking about it...In the meantime, Lord, thank you for Encounter.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Our Little Ones

From today's Gospel (Matt. 18: 1-5, 10, 12-14), one of my favorites right now:

"Amen, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven...[W]hoever receives one child such as this in my name receives me...In just the same way, it is not the will of your heavenly Father that one of these little ones be lost."

Sunday, August 9, 2009

In honor of a Feast Day not observed this year...

My birthday, August 9, is the feast day of Edith Stein, St. Teresa Benedicta of the Cross, my Confirmation saint. This year her feast falls on a Sunday so it is not mentioned on any of my Catholic calendars. She was a Jewish convert, a philosopher & professor- a phenomenologist like Pope JPII & the foundational thinker who contributed to his own philosophy/theology of the "feminine genius," and a cloistered Carmelite nun who was martyred at Auschwitz as a result of the Nazi purging of Catholic monasteries in Denmark after the Dutch bishops spoke out against the Third Reich in no uncertain terms.

Some quotes of hers:

I always think of queen Esther who was chosen from among her own people to intercede before the king for her people. I am a little Esther poor and impotent, but the king who has chosen me is infinitely great and merciful. And this is a great consolation. (Letter 131)

One cannot desire freedom from the cross when one is especially chosen for the cross. (Letter 146)

Faith in the secret history of souls ought to fortify us when what we see externally (in ourselves and in others) takes away our courage. (Letter 148)

The whole work of education should be sustained by love which ought to be manifested in every correction, and it should certainly not be replaced by fear. The most efficacious educational means, then, is not the instruction, but the living example; without this all words are useless. (Woman. 11)

Is the extra-domestic professional activity of woman contrary to the order of nature and grace? I think not. All the powers of man are also present in the nature of woman: even if in different measure and in different proportion- this is proof that she too can use them in activities that correspond to her. These powers are limited when professional activity begins to hinder domestic life, namely the good of the family, composed of parents and children, in which one receives life and education. (Woman. 93)

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

72 Hrs. in Quarantine...Tough Way for a Boy to End a Summer

We're not really quarantined, although we do have the flu. Swine flu that is. Middle son had it last week with worse symptoms than oldest son who has it this week. Middle son was confirmed with it only on Mon.- the testing takes several days b/c it is sent off to one of only a few places in the country performing the testing. Since my husband is active duty Air Force and we get medical care at our base through the DoD (Department of Defense), my son's mucas sample was actually sent on for confirmation as H1N1/swine flu after initially determining it was Type A flu. According to a friend in a similar situation, civilian doctors are not all sending positive Type A flu specimans on for the further confirmation b/c 1) the few centers doing the testing are so back-logged; 2) symptoms are proving to be mild; and 3) patients just have to wait it out, whatever type of flu it is. Oldest son is fine now, after some fever the first 24 hrs., but quite unhappy about being advised to stay home for a few days and having to postpone his first piano lesson and miss our local ConQuest team's kick-off bowling night, considering he feels so well now.

This is just funny to me to be on the front side of the expected wave of this flu as children return to school and pass it around to each other. Thanks be to God, for us it has been a mild flu bug and I suspect will prove to be the same for other relatively healthy people. The reactions we have been getting are interesting and what makes it feel funny. Music teacher at school said the boys would be "famous" once the word got out; my sister who is a nurse said "gross;" and my office wanted me to stay home for a few days so as not to expose everyone.

Anyway, it has made for an interesting and trying end to our summer. My boys head back to school in 1 week and we are all ready for the schedule, challenge, and friends, not to mention the sacramental life. My husband has been doing "Daddy Daycare" at home 3 days a week while I work my PT schedule and needs to knock out some reading, what he was supposed to have been doing while on this flex/elective schedule. He has done a great job and, after the initial adjustment, they've had fun going on field trips to the movies, our city's Children's Museum, the library, parks, the pool, and hopefully still to come- Sea World.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

"Now that's what we call hungry!"

(I wrote this silly poem when the big boys were little, about 2 & 3 1/2 yrs. old, I think, and I was just realizing how many hours of my life I was going to spend feeding them their favorites-of-the-moment!)

Daddy's cereal, Mommy's cereal with
Jude & John Paul's milk.
Pancakes with syrup, please.
Homemade mac and cheese,
Now that's what we call hungry.

Chocolate milk.

Yogurt in a cup,
Grapefruit all cut up,
Apple juice, red juice, any juice;
Snack mix- Goldfish, raisins, peanuts, no peanuts!
Peanut butter and jelly,
all in your belly.
Now that's what we call hungry.

Chocolate milk.

Lots of peas,
"Nohotdogs, pease."
Chicken in anything,
From Daddy's grill, everything!
Now that's what we call hungry.

Chocolate milk.

Do we have dessert?
Pinata candy,
Fruit snacks,
Melting popsicles leave summer tracks.
Now that's what we call hungry.

Chocolate milk.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Why practicing law is like learning a foreign language...and a piece of every lawyer's vocation

Not just because there is an entire legal vocabulary, often Latin, to learn and apply.

Practicing law (or any profession/science-art) for that matter is like learning a foreign language b/c you know you're making progress when you begin to think in the new language, to process in the new language, to make the new language a part of your life, rather than something grafted on for a certain number of required hours.

The past couple weeks have included some firsts for me professionally, including my first client dying (as in one I knew b/f the family came to us at a death for probate). She was a cancer patient, already undergoing experimental treatment when she came to us for a will just a few months ago. Another client is the daughter of another cancer victim, really struggling to accept her mom's death and work w/ me to complete the probate of her mom's estate. (Both these clients' situations lended to increased anxiety for me when my own mom was admitted to the hospital last week, although she has now returned home w/ a treatable diagnosis, thanks be to God and modern medicine.) These clients have given me food for spiritual reflection and crept into my prayers, in a way different from the often rote prayer I pray for all my clients. Bless them and all their loved ones, my Lord. And make me your instrument in their lives, if it be your will.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Vacation...Holiday...Holy Days

From Fr. Richard Veras, "The Importance of Vacation Time," as printed in Magnificant this month.

"This summer look forward to your vacation not as a moment to go away from something, but as a time to go closer to Someone. The One who is behind all that you experience on your vacation is the one who promises to be with you always, even after you have returned to your ordinary routine....May our vacation days not merely be empty of labor, but full of true joy. May we take full advantage of the free time given us to encounter the love, truth, and beauty of Christ in the myriad of ways he comes to us. May we look forward to the unexpected ways he will show himself to us in this privileged time, and may we find ourselves re-created so that our belonging to Christ may help to renew the face of the earth."

This reflection echoes the prayer on my heart for this time, as I enjoy my rest in and with Him (probably neglecting the discipline of my prayer life too much!), and begin looking to a new school year again w/ my children and including my apostolate duties that I have taken a much-needed break from the last 6 weeks.

Friday, June 26, 2009

"But as for me, I trust in you, Lord..."

"Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I am in distress....
Tears have wasted my eyes, my throat, my heart...."

"But as for me, I trust in you, Lord,
I say: 'You are my God.
Let your face shine on your servant.
Save me in your love.' "

-from Psalm 31

The psalm from this morning's Morning Prayer (taken from the beautiful resource Magnificat, not from the true Office of Readings but it should be the same) struck me b/c it voices my heart right now. I am struggling with old anxieties and fears that I always want to think I've left behind and I know the only answer is to give them to You, Lord, with all my heart, and just keep moving forward. Most Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on me. Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for me. As the wisest women in my life have always told me, we just have to keep going. A snapshot of one day of anyone's life isn't necessarily going to be the beautiful landscape that I want to see for myself or anyone else. The only truth in hard situations is faithfulness. And I don't want to waste time and grace, waste life angsting.

My problem is I rely on myself. Especially when I'm struggling and searching spiritually, I can tend to pull back out of a desire to protect myself and somehow satisfy a desire to make my search more authentically mine. But for me, life is Christ. Life is Truth in Him. And I know I cannot find any long-lasting answers apart from You, my Lord. I can find what feels like a reprieve from your demands but that is a narrow view of who you are and all you've been for me. Your blows are always and only blows of Love. And what blows are you really sending my way right now? I am my own biggest cross. Help me to cling to you and, so, let you carry all that you will for me.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

What do Reinhold Niehbur, Mark Twain & Abe Lincoln have in common?

Our mid-west roadtrip.

It was fun & an adventure but it is also good to be home and relax at home (by doing projects) b/f we both have to head to work next week. We caravaned w/ my mom & brother across the midwest to Galesburg, IL, a small town outside Peoria for my sister's wedding. It was gorgeous. She was beautiful. It really reflected their joy-filled & family/friend-centered lives and God. was. there. In their desire for his blessing and, mostly, in their deep desire for unconditional, eternal Love.

So, we read a little of R. Niebur per my uncle's recommendation, from his Essential Writings- on his RN's life itself, as well as a chapter on "Mystery & Meaning." Had already read the essay on "The Christian Church in a Secular Age," which was excellent, better in my opinion. Don't agree w/ all his ultimate conclusions, considering how hard he is on the Catholic Church, but I think he has a lot of astute observations along the way.

We did Hannibal, MO & Mark Twain on the way north. Learned a little about his life as a writer- mostly that he was from a working class family and always had to work to support himself, learned as a printer's apprentice, actually just wrote a handful of books (which surprised me considering he is such a towering figure in American Lit, primarily for his innovation in style, of course- making it contemporary, colloquial), and didn't publish the first novel until after he was married and trying to support his young family. He wrote about what he knew, similar to Louisa May Alcott that way.

Springfield, IL & Abraham Lincoln was the stop on the way home and struck me in a similar way. I always knew he was from a poor family and a self-taught lawyer (particularly amazing to me considering I & everyone I knew paid extra to take an additional Bar prep class, after graduating law school). I hadn't thought about how successful professionally and personally he had to have been to make the climb that he did. And how responsive to God's will he must have been, first in his formation, then living his mission. No one makes that kind of journey, especially a sacrificial one- which his ultimately was, alone. He wrote his timeless pieces in the course of his work as a politician, responding to the needs of the people he served and represented. Some of the comments about Mary Todd's struggles reminded me of myself. Hope I don't suffer from such severe MDD later in life.

So, my take-away light from these men is to be true to myself as God created me to be, including my struggles with practicing & being a working-mom, including with my more spiritual desires to read, write, & reflect more than seems I have time.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Litany of Trust in Christ (& Hope in Our Patrons' Prayers)

I am a choleric-melancholic temperament. Since becoming a wife and mother and tapping into my more relational (& creative) melancholic side, my main struggle has become not letting my other melancholic tendencies (to anxiety, scrupulosity, even depression at times) dominate my personality. I want to be a joyful Christian. I choose to be a joyful Christian. Christ, please give me the grace I need to really believe you have already won the Battle, and to truly live your Resurrection. Why do I think I have to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders when you already carried the Cross? Help me to carry only the yoke you have chosen for me in your great love.

Jesus, I trust in you!

Because you have always loved me- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because you protected me in my mother's womb- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because you gave me such a mother- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because of all I've learned due to my father- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because of the communities you placed me in that taught and formed me- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because of the dreams you've fulfilled- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because of the love you've given my husband and I for each other- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because of the growth we've experienced together- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because of the miracle of life from our union- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because you teach me through my children- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because of meetings and connections only you can arrange- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because of the great plans you have for us- Jesus, I trust in you.
Because YOU ARE- Jesus, I trust in you.

Glory be to you Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and will be forever. (3x)
Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us.
Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for us.
Holy Mary, Mother of God and our Mother, pray for us.
Our Lady of Guadalupe, pray for us.
Faithful St. Joseph, pray for us.
Child Jesus, pray for us.

St. Catherine of Siena, pray for me.
St. Teresa Benedicta of the Cross, pray for me.
St. Thomas More, pray for me.
St. Gianna, pray for me.
St. Gemma Galgani, pray for me.
St. Anthony, pray for me.

St. Louis, pray for us.
St. Luke, pray for us.
St. Dymphna, pray for us.

St. Jude, pray for us.
St. Thomas Aquinas, pray for us.
Sts. John, Paul, and John Paul the Great, pray for us.
St. Mark, pray for us.
St. Ignatius, pray for us.

Glory be to you Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and will be forever. (3x)

Friday, June 5, 2009

Why I Love Lewis

"We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be." -- C.S. Lewis

I have felt myself resisting this spiritual truth lately, desparately seeking to exercise more self-assertion and control over my life and time. It's my life, after all, isn't it? Not really. But a time has come for me to reign in personal and family activities, in the interest of doing the essentials better- including prayer and fun as a family. And just living each day as it comes. Joyfully.

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